I gave all the affection I could

I just was the best person I could be, it’s something I’d concentrated on since my arrival. I tried, I almost never lied four times in ten weeks,please no jokes,about tiny things like where I was when I was wrapping her birthday gift, although naturally there was a lot that went unsaid. I was kind even when on the sharp end of bullshit, I didn’t pick up on the lies and deceit. I was always there for her whatever or whenever she needed me,I did all the housework, I cooked, cleaned, tidied the place, did the laundry, watched a lot movies and Loving The Classics, walked the dog huge amounts ,I am really sad to leave the dog. I gave all the affection I could, but you can only get out of life what you put into it, attitude is everything, and she did not care for me. When she’d been thinking about my arrival and so on right from the beginning,it became clear that it was all about her, like I was some accessory, never about me, or us.   Incidentally she was ethnic Korean, she had no sensitivity to concerns beyond herself in regard to me. I guess she is just an archetypal LA girl to an extent,I found out she’d even gone there with intentions of being an actress, though she was a poor, poor actress indeed. This was one of the reasons I liked her when we first met. I could read her easily if its all good and that was fine, but it was not all good. sadly she never made any time for me,and so this is what I flew into. She works till late in the evening,school Monday and Wednesday evenings and Saturdays plus homework, and on Sunday mornings medical volunteer work she’d just started.